1st day in Hospital Malacca

Today, 1st day la kat Hospital Malacca and I'm never been there. I mean hospital la bkn negeri. hhee.. Anyway, kami sem ni kene buat area Psychiatric where kami kene handle patients with mental illness. Sangat2 takot mula2 but then ok la. We met the UKM's students tapi diorg degree la. Yang aku paling ingat nama sorang je, nama dia Winnie and she's a nice girl la. Then kitorg trus bertapak di Psychiatric department of OT la, of course. Mase kitprg masuk tu, ada la 2 patients. 1st impression, scared but then ok je diorg. Nama diorg sorang Atira then lagi sorang Syakilla. Atira ni die schizo but she's fine and really nice but Killa more garang and aggressive mula2 tapi lepas kami borak2 dengan die, she seem fine la. Killa tu di diagnose as Adjustment Disorder and kami tak penah dengar. But kami diberitahu yang she like to manipulate people and kami pun menjadi mangsa, hhee.. Moral of story, Treat Them Nice And They Will Do The Sane To You!

Make Up Tutorial 2010

Kerana terlalu boring, aku and maz mengambil kesempatan untuk try make up. Biasa la, aku make up kan untuk maz but then, after finish, ok jugak lah. Waahhh! puji diri sendiri. hhe.. After aku dah siap make up kat maz then aku pun make up la kat muka aku sendiri. Maz mintak untuk buat smoky eye tapi aku mane la reti. Last sekali main tibai je la. Tapi jadi jugak la even ciput pun. Aku plak, tak tahu nk buat ape, last sekali, buat yang pinky je lah. hhaa.. Sangat kelakar mukaku bila jadi pinky. Very2 hodoh. Sooooo ayu. hhaa.. Need to show it to my boy but, I don't think so. Conferm2 die akan kritik aku. Aku dah tahu dh. Haha.. Zati ada datang tengok aku make up kan maz pastu kami cakap la nak make up kan dia plak lepas ni, terus zati membawa diri dengan berlari. kami tak sempat nk mengejar zati. So, kami hanya call but no answer. Sangat2 frust. Tapi lepas kami dah habis make up, sesi snap photo plak. So, ape lagi, snap la banyak2. After all done, zati datang membawa adtyka bersama. Apa lagi, suh la adtyka ajar pakai selendang in proper way. Dapat jugak la tips dari adtyka. Hhee.. Tiba2 fikir pasal nak ambik gambar pulak dengan adtyka. So, lagi la gian sumer duk snap picture. Nak tengok? Here there are....:)

Hanya aku keseorangan mengontrolkan keayuan diriku ini

Menawan kah? or not... :)

Menonjolkan diri maybe pada dinner nanti. Kan maz kn? ahaks!

Samarkah kami? hhee :)

kami berdua pada akhir make up tutorial :)

Everything goes well. Then tiba2 maz cakap nk balik sebab takut nanti nak balik sorang. Aku dengan paksa rela membenarkan maz pulang ke sarang nya. Bertelur banyak2 ye maz. Kan dah bagi baiiikkk punyeeerr make up. Hhaaa... :) Salam Aidilfitri! :)

semakin hari semakin dekat

Sekarang ni tinggal berapa hari lagi untuk aku balik ke kampung untuk berpuase dengan family tercinta and jugak sambut hari raya kat sana. Tak sabar rasanya tapi apa boleh buat, kena lalui 2 test and kena submit 2 assignment. Begitu banyak dugaan untuk balik ke kampung. Tapi aku sanggup laluinya untuk berjumpa dengan ayah dan bonda tercinta. Menghitung hari dari start puasa until now and I'm never bored to count till I say 'I'm home!'. Can't wait to say that. 3 hb 9 malam, aku akan naik bas kat Stesen Bas Putra untuk balik kampung dengan my boy. Hopefully, everything goes well. Pada 4 hb 9. aku dah ada kat rumah and tak sabar nk jumpa dengan all my family especially my mum, dad and my brothers. Miss you all like crazy. Foe my mom,  bought the lip brush that she told me but not to buy just to take a look but I bought it to you. For my little bro, I bought skinny jeans that he really want and I had no enough money to buy him the shirt. Wait eh, I'm back, then we go to buy it to you. ok? For my brother, dia pesan eyeliner and I don't know what he gonna used with that. Tapi aku beli jugak la. Sayang adik punyer pasal. Cume 1 benda lagi tu, aku x jumpa cari. Tape2, nanti kite pegi cari sama2 ye. And aku ada jugak lah aku beli bunga api untuk adik laki aku 2 org tuh, tahu sangat diorang suka main bunga api. Sayang Alif and Afiq and miss you guys! Wait for kakak ok?

Love the way you lie

Speechless. tak tahu nak cakap apa. Benda dah jadi but tahu secara tak sengaja. Allah tu maha Adil. I think I need to think of myself rather than others!

Discussion

Now kat cafe reff, dealing with the discussion about the assessment that we need to make on our own from madam Padma and we still discuss it and hopefully it will done on tonight. I'm too tired of the discussion but it one of the schedule of student so, kene ikut lah. what can I do? hhee.. Otherwise, I'm looking for the make up tutorial in Youtube where my friend, maz told me about it. And I would like to try. It so cool where we can even learn how to make up from make up artist from UK and even the local one. I love it. But I'm not sure weather I wanna apply it to my face. Tapi plan for raya ni lebih kepada natural sebab aku tanak nampak cam orang tua yang manic.Manic? You know what I mean. Hhee.. Anyway, I wanna look gorgeous in front of my family.

Aku tak tahu!

Skang ni aku tengah tension! Seriously aku tak tahu yang aku ada discussion malam ni. Nasib baik la haida sent message to me and told me about it. If not, they will more angry with me. I just knew it. Tapi nasib baik yang dimentia aku dh siap buat mase kat umah kakak aku lagi. Tapi laptop lak x bawak.Atas belas ihsan kakak aku, die pun hantar la email power point yang aku buat tu. Internet plak bengong. Lame giler kot nak download tapi terpaksa la jgk tunggu nk bagi diorg tegok. Nanti diorg cakap ape lak.Dah la lambat turun. Adoii. Aku kene buat yang clinical features of dimentia and luckily, I'm done! Aku dh siap kan semalam masa kat umah kakak aku lagi and agak free la. Thanx to my senior bagi pinjam buku psychiatric! Sangat2 senang untuk di fahami. Jap lagi nk turun pegi bilik zue n hilda sebab nak hantar power point tu. Tapi yang word, kakak aku taleh hantar sebab die call, line dah lembab sangat2. Nak attach pun susah tapi biar la. At least aku dapat tunjuk jugak hasik keje aku. Masalah 1 je lagi. Esok kakak senior nak amik buku tu tapi aku dah janji dengan kak ain nak bagi die tengok dulu. Adoyaiii. Macam mane ni.. Tapi tape. Tu masalah hari esok. Masalah hari ni dh settle! Alhamdullilah!

Do I need to do what don't??

I always think am I deserved to be there, am I good enough to him or them, am I tall enough to stand for, am I smart enough to through a real world and am I strong enough for whole thing? Sometimes life is unfair and some people think it never been fair.